And Here’s Where I Come Unglued (But Only a Little Bit)

I’m sitting alone in my Mom’s house. Not totally alone – thankfully I made the decision to bring my amazing friends – furbabies – spirits – Bella and Jo – I’d be more than a little bit unglued if they weren’t here.  But it’s all wrong nonetheless.  It’s wrong being here without my Mom. The [...]

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Angry

And not even for why you might think – some dumb crap’s been going on around me as of late that I’ve had little patience for but I’m trying and doing ok at the not taking stuff personally approach.
I’m mad  – raging, pissed-off mad at my back.  Last September I was diagnosed with 3 bad [...]

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She’ll Have A Side of Clonazepam with Her Turkey

I can’t sugarcoat anything about my time at Mom’s this past week. Thanksgiving was miserable this year. And I can’t say I am surprised because my sister and I have known this was coming since Mom had her stroke but we’d been lulled into some sort of blissful ignorance.  Plus I had been unable to travel there [...]

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Misery

UPDATE: Plumber arrived this afternoon, inspected the basement, snaked the drain (and the water all drained away and out – yeah!) and informed me that this was a sewer backup into my basement. Sewer – as in the system that carries waste out of our homes. Waste as in poo, pee and who knows what else. He did tell me that [...]

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Never a Dull Moment

Update: After a somewhat harrowing and long day, Jojo is home and stitched up. After a relatively uneventful night, the makeshift t-shirt + makeup pad dressing came off and the flap opened up and started bleeding again kind of profusely. I called John Rose who said bring her right over because it was a few [...]

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How Was Your Day?

The events to set off what would be my Monday full of madness began Saturday evening when my hot water heater stopped working.  The pilot light would not stay lit – I kept trying and eventually gave up (after I spent 20 minutes working up the nerve to try and light it to begin with). [...]

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Therapy-Weary

I don’t often write in much detail about the fact that I see a counselor.  I’m not ashamed at all – in fact if anything I’ve realized it takes courage to seek this sort of support. But I don’t know who all reads this blog – I assume a decent chunk of my coworkers do and those that do [...]

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Mommy Guilt

Normally what one would expect to follow would be me talking about how my full-time job and all the other stuff I do makes me feel guilty about not spending as much time with my children as I should. Except that I don’t have human children (only quadrupeds…). I have a mother.  And mom has in her very [...]

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Didn’t See That Coming

Like many people I have a morbid fascination with celebrities. It’s not because I want to be like them or envy the money and fame.  On the contrary, I could not imagine a more miserable existence. Pressure to look good all the time, constant badgering by paparazzi, the access to all the money and what truly [...]

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The Winter of My Discontent

I find that I have the same experience each winter starting after Thanksgiving. It lasts until mid to late February usually.  It started when Dad died. I’m morose, anti-social, unmotivated, depressed and generally grumpy. Mom is more difficult than normal to contend with. I don’t like the holidays, the consumerism, the driving around, the craziness.  I don’t like [...]

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