I’m Not Broken Anymore

It’s funny how the tides of life sweep you in the direction you need to go sometimes when you just stop fighting it.  My back is still broken – well not really but it’s all jacked up. I do now know what’s going on, and there is a plan.  It’s also forced me into some habit changes I [...]

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Angry

And not even for why you might think – some dumb crap’s been going on around me as of late that I’ve had little patience for but I’m trying and doing ok at the not taking stuff personally approach.
I’m mad  – raging, pissed-off mad at my back.  Last September I was diagnosed with 3 bad [...]

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Game On

Back in June, maybe July, right before my life imploded, or was it exploded? Some of both. Anyway we won’t talk about that. Back in June or July, I signed up for the Indianapolis 500 Festival Mini-Marathon.  I knew I was in need of something – at the time I thought it was a goal [...]

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The Winter of My Discontent

I find that I have the same experience each winter starting after Thanksgiving. It lasts until mid to late February usually.  It started when Dad died. I’m morose, anti-social, unmotivated, depressed and generally grumpy. Mom is more difficult than normal to contend with. I don’t like the holidays, the consumerism, the driving around, the craziness.  I don’t like [...]

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Megan Meier Tragedy

I found out about this tragedy last night when I read a bulletin posted by Jay on MySpace. Today Scott has posted some informative links with details about the situation.
The whole thing is so upsetting I could barely finish reading the articles. I don’t really even know what to say about it all.  I spent the first 18 years of my life [...]

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Hello Old Friends

I started working out, and had the realization that I loved how it made me feel my junior year of college (so sometime in the 90’s – that’s all you’re getting on my age). Hanover College had just completed work on the new Horner Center, a state-of-the-art athletic facility where students could work out.  And I [...]

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Lonely

I can really only live one day at a time right now. I had a couple of ok days, and today is not ok. I should have known better – if I’m going to consume more than 1 alcoholic beverage, I need to be prepared to go to bed right after or else with all [...]

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New and Shiny

Is apparently not what I am anymore. Which I guess I knew, but I just assumed it was ok (and not a part of why any of this happened). Because it happens when you are with someone for a long period of time – the excitement and intrigue wears off.  And it’s not a bad thing, it settles into [...]

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Poor Brit

A few caveats before I say what’s on my mind about the Britney Spears/VMA debacle: I think Britney is a complete train wreck, I think the girl has huge issues, I think she is clearly fighting a substance abuse problem, I think her kids are in danger, I think she is a terrible role model for young [...]

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