I’m back. Maybe. I need a respite from Facebook. I feel very exposed sometimes there, and pretty regularly censor myself -moreso than I would here – odd seeing as how any old person can read this, but I can limit my who sees what on Facebook. Perhaps I’ve grown tired of Facebook. In any case, I was over reading at elle-square.blogspot.com and was inspired by a post about books and life to come back to Wanderingbella. I was a very different person in a very different place when I began this blog almost 4 years ago. I was bitter and angry and reeling from a terrible breakup and wanted to air some grievances and so I did. I still have a crazy difficult mother whose issues dominate much of my life (whether I let on to that or not – let’s be honest it’s fun to talk about babies and kids and shoe sales and the weather but no one wants to hear about sick mothers and dead fathers in their mid-30s - I’m an anomaly among my friends in that regard – even an outsider on some levels – another post for another time but it’s the sad truth.) I still have a stressful job – it’s put me through the grinder this week – in fact I should be answering emails instead of blogging even though it’s 9pm. I still have dogs and cats I adore and my house and my garden. I have some new things like pursuing my passion for dog training and Jojo and I achieved our CGC and TDI certifications in 2010. But I am different. I’m more settled and content on some levels (but not on others). I have settled into living the life I am in rather than searching for some unknown thing I think I want, or society thinks I should have. I strive for balance. I appreciate the simplicity. And I recognize that life does not owe me tomorrow so I try and balance the responsibilities of work and home and paying bills and the general business of behaving like an adult along with enjoying and being in the moment. So – why am I back here? I’m not sure really in any certain manner but books have sent me here for now.
My whole life I’ve been a voracious reader. I remember Saturdays as a kid being my most favorite day of the week because my Mom would come home from the grocery with 1 or 2 new Little Golden Books. So it’s no surprise to me that books guided me back here. Inspired by a friend and fellow bookclubber doing the same, I am going to start a book journal. Not to showcase how well-read I am, but so at the end of the year I can review what I read – remember each book, and reflect on how the book touched me. And I think in addition to attempting to keep the journal here, I will do it on old school hardcopy as well. So here goes:
Book Journal – 2011
The Book Thief (new)
A Reliable Wife (new)
So true that one has to make finding that balance in life a priority. Memories and lessons from the past, dealing with and enjoying the present, and dreaming planning for the future must all meld or one will steal from the others.
BTW–I loved A Reliable Wife–read it last year:)
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